Why Am I the One Crying?
Today was 'one of those days' with Journey: from the moment she got out of bed and demanded candy for breakfast (and threw a tantrum when I told her no), to the moment I sent her back to her bed shortly after supper for refusing to do what I asked (all I wanted her to do was go potty so we could then go to the library!)
Everything was a fight. Her two favorite responses when asked to do something are: "I can't" or "First I need to ..." She has an excuse for every delay in obedience and nothing I say or do seems to get through to her. I get so weary of the struggle. I feel defeated and inadequate.
I seem to cry more during discipline than she does. Her will is so strong. I want to be able to break her of her disobedience without breaking her spirit. Garron and I actually stopped right in the middle of a big 'set to' this evening to pray for her (and US!!) cause it all just seemed so out of control. It HAS been getting worse and worse and often she doesn't even acknowledge that I'm talking to her.
We never made it to the library. I wanted to get her new stories to listen to when going to sleep (a real treat!) ... but we just couldn't permit it with her continued rebellion. I know, I know ... there are spiritual lessons and parallels here. God wants to bless us, His kids, but can't because we haven't learned to walk in the safety of obedience.
I guess tomorrow is a new day ... but honestly with the way I feel right now I'm just not looking forward to it.
posted by Amy @ 6:37 PM
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4 Comments:
Hang in there, Amy. She is testing boundaries - consistency is the hard part but worth the effort. You can do this and you both will be happier in the long run.
Hey! You were a kid once! She won't grow up to be a hoodlum or criminal! There WILL be days like that! I wished them on you.....just kidding! You're doing a great job! She could be the kind that keeps everything in then blows! No its better to be her...strong will and all...that's great! You just have to be stronger...you won't break her will! Yeah AMy go Amy go!!!!!
hey Amy its Meagan from church years ago, I just want to say I know what you mean about the discipline thing, I am the one who does most of the disciplining when it comes to Haley, I could be yelling at the top of my lungs one minute for her to do something then 5-10 mins later its like nothing ever happened and we are hugging and giving kisses to each other. She also always wants junk but I always say "after supper" or "after school", and she is always getting out of bed at night cause "she has a question" or wants something an I always say "get to bed or else I’ll take a toy away" that always works. And ya its tough on her and you but no matter what she still loves you and that will never change!!!
Hi Amy,
I think Abby & Journey could be twins behaviour-wise. I guess it's the 3-year old thing. I honestly thought that we got off pretty easy with the 2s and then the nearly 3s hit. I read your post & just wanted to give you a hug (for both of us!). We've totally had days where I just wanted to get OUT THE DOOR, but disobedience, talking back, etc., etc., etc. kept us house-bound. Know that you're in good company. Let's pray for each other as we parent these little ones. We need all the support we can get! Love ya, Amy. We think of you folks often and miss you lots :-)
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